Is the Constitution Dead?

Wow, +400 people removed from their homes by and unsubstantiated call about abuse by a man who was not there?

I do not support the underage marriages occurring within the FLDS, but with the 'law enforcement' action that has occurred in TEXAS, I have to ask. The question beckons...

IS THE CONSTITUTION DEAD?

I made the trip

I went through my baptism. It was beautiful. I have made a pilgrimage and have found a wonderful experience.

I was able to make a trip to a Mormon colony. Good people generally is what I found. I have to say that it was a learning experience.

Now, back to work. Being gone 8 days has strained my budget.

The good news is I MADE IT!

I hope now to follow the Principle. What a Celestial Goal!

moving fast...

Well with all the studying I have done and the work I have done, things are happening fast...

I go through my baptism and ordination in February. I am also now buying a brand new home for my wife(s) and family.

We studied several floor plans and have decided that a wonderful 5 bedroom plan is the way we will go. There are 2 master bedrooms and enough kid room for the flock.

Business has been good enough and it will be close enough to my wife's sole surviving parent for her to provide the care required to keep parent out of a nursing home.

Additionally, I am opening a second office. This is ALSO good news. I am still working very hard, but at least with good business, we are moving ahead in a fiscally responsible manner.

Maybe, JUST MAYBE God cut me a break as a reward for the faith I have and the adversity I have survived? I do not know, but for now, I take a moment to say 'Thank you God. I am truly grateful!'

We are truly blessed.

Contemplation and Decisions...

Well the journey and the studies have been long. I am making my trip into the Mormon faith this year. I have studied. I have prayed. I have talked with my wife and children. I am headed for my baptism.

I guess it has been a while since I posted. Between excessive work, family crisis and all it just got back-burnered.

WOW. This is good news. My wife and I are expecting twins!

I cannot be happier than I am now. God is trying to heal the wounds in my life. I am sure of that now. I wish the wounds had never happened, but I suppose that these wounds are what make us what he truly wants us to be. Since the horrid death of my son in 1999 I have never been the same. I fight to not be cynical and to focus on the positives.

Business has picked up which is good. I have, due to this, had less family time.

I barely had a Christmas. What I had, was good. I spent it with my wife and children.

It is odd how things change in your life. I am on a path that feels right. I feel moving forward will be a time of joy, healing and happiness.

Hope you all had a good holiday. I know I did.

a time for thanksgiving

Wow. STILL DRYWALLING! Thank God for my wife. She bought me a heavy duty power sander that has made it much faster.

I can say that next time I will subcontract it out for sure. I would rather take a second job to pay for it than do this again.

Well i have come to a crossing in the road...I have decided to make the plunge and convert. I am sure it is the spiritual path i need to take. There are many options and I have to focus my thoughts and prayers to recognize what is my true path.

This is difficult. One thing I do not want is to make a mistake in my journey. I fear being blinded by the glitter and losing my path.

Wonder if this makes sense to any of you. Feel free to let me know.

a GREAT WEEKEND

This was a good weekend. We managed to find some time to have fun. I have continued my drywalling work upstairs. Difficult at best if you are new at it. I am finishing the master bedroom and have about 30% to go. Then when all is sanded down and baby smooth comes painting. Have to apply primer and then finish coat. It is a lot of hard work.

We decided that the Master bedroom will be baby blue. The girls room will be a light pink. Boys room will be a deeper blue, with trains as a theme.

My path towards becoming mormon has been slowed by intense work and home. I rarely find the time to do any reading, or even listening.

I am trying to get my D&C on my MP3 player so I can listen while I work, but of course, I lost the software for it. Calling Creative Labs this week to fix that. I figure if I can learn while I work I can make progress again.

Now the good news, aside from a baby on the way, is my wife MIGHT be willing to make some compromises in regards to bringing in a Second Wife. I hope to talk to her more about it today whilest we are working.

I know this much. I have been tasked with too much and I have to do something to help. My wife was overwhelmed long ago and I need to rescue her from this. The real question is, in my heart, will she let me do that? Will she let me grow celestially? Will she allow me to help her with a second wife? Will God make this happen?

Wish I could read HIS mind. I ask for your prayers. This is a turning point in our lives and it will either become far better or far worse. May God choose the better path for us. Please, ask him to.

Wow what a week!

Well things improved more business wise. I am looking at potential growth all over. Record sales this month. I hope to expand my company to other areas. I am hoping God brings me the answer I pray for.

Why do I not feel joy? Why am I not feeling happiness? For me, well, I know already a second wife is a sane, logistical, spiritual and morally valid choice. I hope my wife's heart is touched by God in the same way my soul has been touched. I do not think she realizes what she is choosing.

Praying I have someone still to share that joy with. With all that Moses endured, he was blessed with a second wife. I have endured and continue to endure a great deal. Every fiber in my body calls for a second wife. I feel God is almost PUSHING me that way regardless of the currents through which I swim.

I do not understand what God has in mind...but I pray it still includes my wife. Another miracle in my life is that now we have a new child on the way. Ever been struck at exactly the same time with intense joy and intense sadness? I am immensely happy that God has given us another child, but I have trepidation about this child's future and happiness.

That, brothers and sisters, is my life today.